A Beautiful Life​.​.​.

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A collection of incredibly personal songs I wrote and recorded during the spring and early summer of 2015.

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released July 17, 2015

© Brandon-Richard Austin

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Brandon-Richard Austin Toronto, Ontario

Howdy! My name's Brandon and I'm a 20 year old singer-songwriter from Toronto.

I've been recording music for several years now, and am incredibly passionate about the arts. Thanks for checking out my page on BandCamp, hope you like what you see!

All my music on this site is available for free download. Knock yourself out!
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Track Name: Anything But This
At night I watch the ripples dance across the empty sky
And think ‘I’d love to say goodbye tonight’
But I’d hate to be a half-assed poet,
A case of ‘coulda been if he’d stuck around’

But it’s a pointless, stupid conversation
Cause when the morning comes
I know I’ll feel a rush of apprehension
Come in like a flood

It always hits me like an upper
It hits me like a different kind of blue

Oh it’s a beautiful life
Why you wanna throw it all away tonight?
Just think of the people you’re leaving behind

But sometime before the afternoon I start to feel the gloom
I feel it thicken in an hour or two
I feel it tugging at my skin and bones
Tugging at my pants and at my shoes

When the evening comes I’ve hit the fan
I’ve really come loose
That’s when I start to feel cynical
And wonder what’s the use

That feeling’s so god damned familiar
I know exactly what I’m gonna do

Oh it’s a beautiful life
Why you wanna throw it all away tonight?
Just think of the people you’re leaving behind

When they find out you’re gone
Like the words to a half-finished song
You think they’ll remember you
For anything but this?
Track Name: For You (Blue)
If you open up your eyes
You’ll see the world is on your side
So how is it you still feel like a loner
When everybody loves ya?

When they say you have a beautiful smile
Don’t it make you wanna stay a while?
Well evidently not, cause you’re still on the edge
You wake up every day and wanna stay in bed

If all of your ambitions feel like delusions
Cause nothing good is ever gonna happen
And you long to feel again
You have a bad day but you can’t tell the difference
Oh it all just feels the same

Living in a nonstop cycle
A twisted deja-vu
If you know just what I’m saying
Darling, this one’s for you

If you dig deep into your mind
You’ll see your thoughts are unconfined
So how is it you haven’t had a good dream
In the longest while?

If you wander to and fro
Not knowing where you’re trying to go
Or even if you feel like you’re downright crazy and alone

If all of your ambitions feel like delusions
Cause nothing good is ever gonna happen
And you long to feel again
You have a bad day but you can’t tell the difference
Oh it all just feels the same

Living in a nonstop cycle
A twisted deja-vu
If you know just what I’m saying
Darling, this one’s for you

If all of your ambitions feel like delusions
Cause nothing good is ever gonna happen
And you long to feel again…
Track Name: Don't You Ever Learn?
Won't you take my words
And throw 'em in the sky
Cause they're not worth anything

I guess it's what I deserve
For thinking I could get away with everything I did

For me to say that I missed you
While cringing at the thought of your return
Almost as bad as when I kissed you
On the cheek and just let it burn

Oh don't you ever learn
That if the snake bites once
It's probably gonna bite again
Don't you learn?

So won't you take my sword
Just stick it in my back
And cut off my spinal cord

That way I won't lift a finger
To hurt you or say things that linger
Deep inside your brain

For me to say that I missed you
While cringing at the thought of your return
Almost as bad as when I kissed you
On the cheek and just let it burn

Oh don't you ever learn
That if the snake bites once
It's probably gonna bite again
Don't you learn?

So won't you take my words?
Track Name: Half-Assed Fantasy
Last night I was singing
I don’t know if I can go on
This morning I woke up and decided I would prove myself wrong

So I started off dancing
Yeah I danced until my feet fell off
I danced until my knees were gone
I danced until my legs were broken stumps

Cause all I wanted to be
Since I was seventeen
Was a half assed human being
No I do not have a reason

Half assed sanity
Half assed misery
Oh, that’s my cup of tea
That’s my half assed fantasy

Last night I was praying,
I was praying to the god of love and apathy
I said, ‘hey woman can you find me,
Can you find me a love as plain as me?’

And she said ‘hey boy just listen
There’s some things you gotta know before you take the plunge’
There’s no use in being with anyone
Yeah I tell ya love is only half the fun

Cause all I wanted to be
Since I was seventeen
Was a half assed human being
No I do not have a reason

Half assed sanity
Half assed misery
Oh, that’s my cup of tea
That’s my half assed fantasy

When I find myself alone
I dream of leaving home

And that’s why you’ll see my name on the wall
Won’t you catch me when I fall?
Track Name: Once Upon A Time
Where did my conscience go?
I woke up by the telephone
And got beneath the covers
With all my friends and lovers
Waiting outside

And where did my feelings go?
I swore I’d never let them go
But I’m going through the motions
Without feeling any token
Of love at all

I used to laugh more than a little bit
I used to cry at all different kinds of shit
But now I feel like the world’s come
Crashing down and I don’t have it in me
Crashing down and I don’t have it in me to feel at all

Where did my secrets go?
The things you weren’t supposed to know
I left them on the table
With all my plans and fables
Oh no

And where has my ego flown?
Where has my ego flown?
It once was in the ocean
But now it’s eight miles high
And I don’t know why

I used to laugh more than a little bit
I used to cry at all different kinds of shit
But now I feel like the world’s come
Crashing down and I don’t have it in me
Crashing down and I don’t have it in me to feel at all
Oh no
Track Name: Tragedy
I don't mind living alone
But I take all the love I'm shown
No I ain't no rolling stone
I'm just a fool

I feel it in the depths of my bones
But that's the way things seem to go
When your back's against the wall
And you still find a way to fall

But that's my favourite song
Even though it always comes out wrong
In my heart I know it won't be long till you become my favourite tragedy

My tragedy
My tragedy
My tragedy

You knew that I was right all along
So why'd you go and tell the world I was wrong
When my face has always shone so bright
That no one sees the look in my eyes

I feel it in the depths of my soul
That your heart will never be my home
But I guess I should've known
You sang it on the telephone

I feel it in the depths of my bones
But that's the way things seem to go
When your back's against the wall
And you still find a way to fall

But that's my favourite song
Even though it always comes out wrong
In my heart I know it won't be long till you become my favourite tragedy

My tragedy
My tragedy
My tragedy
Track Name: Game Of Life
She comes and she goes
And she leaves me on my own
She’s the prettiest I’ve ever known
But it doesn’t even matter

‘Cause she don’t think twice
About leaving me out on thin ice
Even though she knows it bites
And I always look out for her
I always look out for her

Well maybe I’m a fool for trying
But I still believe that love could be much more than something I write about
Beyond a shadow of a doubt
More than a character
More than a momentary passenger in the game of my life

Maybe the next one’ll be a sweetheart
And we’ll build a house of cards
With a bonfire in the yard to keep us on our tippy-toes

As I sing, she’s probably with another guy
But that’s alright, you know I don’t mind
‘Cause it’s not like I haven’t had a turn or two before
Behind every open door

Well maybe I’m a fool for trying
But I still believe that love could be much more than something I write about
Beyond a shadow of a doubt
More than a character
More than a momentary passenger in the game of my life

They say good things come to those who wait
Well I can’t help but fill my time with romance of ill fate
‘Cause all the momentary glitter keeps me awake…
Track Name: Gimme Something
You can call my name
You can call my name
When the sun gets brighter

Who said that feelings don’t change
Clearly never knew what they had ’till it was gone or they threw it away
Away

But save this one dance for me
Save this one dance for me
Save this one dance for me

It’s too late to make the birds out from the bees
And I don’t need nothing
No I don’t need nothing

It’s too late to be the things I wanna be
So just gimme something
Just gimme something

Oh but if I die tonight
I would be satisfied with the tip of your tongue
Spreading awful truths about me

You can call my name
You can call my name
When they set me on fire

You can call me insane
You can call me insane
But just don’t call me a biter
Track Name: Best Believe It
I think I've finally found the meaning
I'm not dead
No I'm just dreaming of a place
Where I'll always be alone
Don't you know it hurts to leave home?

To find that alcohol and cigarettes can't hide what's in your brain
Cause when you open up your lips
Your heart remains
You know nothing's changed

Oh you best believe it
There's nowhere you can run to save yourself
Cause the worst is only just beginning
You best believe it
There's nothing you can do
And there's no one you can call

I think I've finally found the ceiling
Oh it hit me like a feeling I've never had
A feeling I've never had
You know I ain't alright with that

And all my friends only put up with me
Cause they don't really know
And they can't see
That this is really me
It's all I'll ever be

Oh you best believe it
There's nowhere you can run to save yourself
Cause the worst is only just beginning
You best believe it
There's nothing you can do
And there's no one you can call

Oh you best believe it
There's nowhere you can run to save yourself
Cause the worst is only just beginning
You best believe it
There's nothing you can do
And there's no one you can call
Track Name: 21st Century
You may not know which way you’re going
But pretty soon you’re gonna find out
What the 21st Century’s all about

The wheels may be frozen but the gears are still turning
And there’s no point in stopping now
Cause it’s not your time to take a bow

And you might feel it on your back
But there’s no use in turning round
Cause you know you can’t go back

You’ll find yourself on the next train, running
But you won’t know where you’re running to
And that’s when you begin to lose

The wheels are on the track but there’s too much friction
So you start to feel the burn
And that’s when you begin to learn

And you might feel it on your back
But there’s no use in turning round
Cause you know you can’t go back

You may not know which way you’re going
But pretty soon you’re gonna find out
What the 21st Century’s all about

You may not know which way you’re going
But pretty soon you’re gonna find out
What the 21st Century’s all about